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面對心愛的人， 只在乎自己的委屈，卻忽視對方的感受，不自覺地傷害最親密的人。

Labels: 2008

dreams determine destiny

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分開的兩個我, 好好地對話
一個多慮的杞人, 一個受傷的夢想家
結論是被現實否定, 没結論
心中, 最明白是什麼故事

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

i cant stand being depressed for so long. it's meaningless to trap oneself from moving on. i cant live in that trauma forever.
i'm ready to be responsible for it, start my life bravely with all i have.
upsetting my past and future will only block me from encouraging my present.
i hv to raise up fast enough after falling.
and wake up, from her dream, finally.

although i'm still unclear, somehow i know i should hv the brave to encourage myself to move upon the worst situation ever.
no one ever know what they ll meet every corner.
but once i was blocked from the direction doesnt mean i cant get move on from another direction.
i shouldnt cut off chances to hope.
don dare to hope for better but want to try out all way so that my present hv least possible to become a regret past.

i start to love simpler life.
if there was only one thing i worry now, it's a life without dreams.
it's not a definite good thing when i stop worry about my future like before.
perhaps i ll become less flexible, perhaps i become less adventurous.
it was my fear in the past, i did not like to stick to old plans.
i cant believe i move to this stage and look like i'll be enjoyed with these.
my brain is reforming my near future plans, i hv no single clue or will to deny its changes.
it's all so different now.
simple, peaceful and lovely days is listed as top priority when any change were taken into consideration, not tiring and failing in life which look like i'm wasting up my energy.

i think i ll hv a clear mind and know which direction to move on,
and stand by for the next challenge task with all i have now.
i really got to try out confidently.

i dun wan to be a sad person.
i can see myself climbing up now.

appreciate the people you care the most,
make them happy every moment when u hv the chance to.
Don’t invest your energy in hopes of leaving; instead invest your energy in the people around you.

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

everywhere, for things happened on me, i was either get inspired or get knocked down. the most important thing might not always be the end product because every end mark a new beginning, it's that have i really get the lesson from the circumstance, and how i respond to what i experience that matter.

recently, I have spare more time on my own, sort of tidy up my personal values for life, through reading and part-time work, talking to friends and colleagues, bit by bit, day by day. there still be questions weighing their values and mine.

looking through the photos with friends and family, i found i have no much regrets in the past. however, some essence values missing in the past can make me even better than yesterday. Life is too short to learn everything by experience. And some painful experiences can be avoided. There are some of the things that i might not mastered in, however it's the time to welcome new values, restructure old values to be part of my character.

*be proactive, brave, more concerned about others - life is short, be an enormous source of inspiration to many people around. because you are rich or poor in life by smiles around you, friends you make, ideas you have, dreams you chase, and the love you spread. sometimes, slapping a shoulder shows a sign of camaraderie.

*do not blame circumstances - we definitely hope everyone can be honest, but when they don't wish you to see something, understand why someone is doing so, don't let them know that you know how they feel, do something on the opposite that can make them feel happy, or just dont do anything.
it's the responsibility, the ability to choose your response wisely.

*dont hate someone - if you have consume so many time to figure about how to hate them, then they should feel sorry for you, for you it's lifeless, nothing but them.

*respect should be earned, not given freely - knowing and respect yourself and other. ignore and show people the right way for both convenient cooperation. and one of the simplest ways to show respect is to simply listen. respect others enough to let them get the whole story out before we rush in to give an answer, or jump in to fix things.

*learn to persuade and influencing people - success depend on saying the right thing at the right time. choose your words carefully. we have to use words to communicate. we may as well choose the best. use skilful words to tip the balance, provided you have a good reason.

Labels: 2008, Self-Improvement

I　ｋｎｏｗ　ｏｆ　ｎｏ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｅｎｃｏｕｒａｎｇｉｎｇ　ｆａｃｔ　ｔｈａｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｕｎｑｕｅｓｔｉｏｎａｂｌｅ　ａｂｉｌｉｔｙ　ｏｆ　ｍａｎ　ｔｏ　ｅｌｅｖａｔｅ　ｈｉｓ　ｌｉｆｅ　ｂｙ　ｃｏｎｓｃｉｏｕｓ　ｅｎｄｅａｖｏｒ．- Henry David Theoreau

Labels: 2008, Anonymous

today, what am i looking for? what is that?
the biggest fear of Vicky,
have she done everything of her dreams..??
is she done?

everything presents the way it were before, but why
what i see does not mean the same as what i saw anymore.
if I were to experience this again.. it would still be terrifying.

yes, I never sound like this before,
this isnt me,
i'm unfamilar with this inner soul.
what bring part of me away?
there is no way i could yell it out,
i'm totally imcomplete when these took place,
staring at the void of me, nothing else, just void.

now, i'm fine, thanks to people who bring warmness to my life,
great great distance from my yesterday adventure,
goodbye to the histories,
board me to another journey, it's cold and dark waiting at the doorway.
so dark.

changes are as promised
and no similar mistake
will replace the void

look closely to what i have now
carry on with what's left
hopefully a complete one

以前生命中, 深信不疑的那些价值，开始更动
旧的模式突然的就被摧毁
心渴望自由，但现在却卡住了
好像行过地狱的荒野，寻找着真正的自由
現在,心不想再处在控制和占有里，不想丧失本心的美感
必须去面对，才能从中解脱

只有懂得放下过去的人，才能漂亮的走向下一步

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

if, everyone i meet in life is a cloud,
from the distance,
through the sides,
only part of the characters are shown from the angle i'm standing.

from my perpective,
the shape will change from time to time, by the wind.
what we have read about others is according to how one have to act under a certain pressure.
my understanding about the closer ones, would it be a false perception.

which is the true colour.

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do all human kinds fragile like a cloud, that doesnt own the power to change the wind direction, but learn to accept the changing in themselves

what has been taken away from me, so far, have i lose a power to sense, or to make the wind be the energy, so as to move on with what is supposed to.

what is the fear, how do i switch myself accordingly, do everything in a better way

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

第三個人手拿著紙和筆, 寫什麽人生, 玩什麽游戯
找寻的是什麽目標, 標准都寫下了, 就找得到嗎
人生, 可不可以簡單一點
再多的, 經過無情的過染, 無味了

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

present have taught me to appreciate the present
present tells me not to be so true to one selves

more, more flexible/complicated you have to be..??

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"The most complex things in life are aimed towards making life simpler"
It was told that genius has the ability to reduce the complicated to the simple,
his principle is:
Be civil to all; sociable to many; familiar with few; friend to one; enemy to none

Labels: 2008, Anonymous

i love to view out of the windows, through seasons and miles. from the past, i thought the world is wonderful, it's direct and clear. currently, as some beautiful places catched my eyes, in my mind the innocent was wondering, it's from the same window, why many people are acting so much contrast to this world.

it's amazing of how things get going when it's not perfectly acknowledged, like a rainbow after shower or a blossom spring after days of snow. the fact that real life have proven my last blog entry was not totally right or i shall not conclude. i'm glad, where, within the slightest chances given, i was bring to meet a few, who opened my eyes to an agenda. although i know i barely learned and recognised the innocent me that i used to think it is revelant to stay on. and to the me today, whether or not she would be succeed to step up reaching a new stage, for something that have been revealed so as to procceed with unmistakable changes.

for a couple of friends out there, thank you so much for letting me know what's more important. the people who are always important in my life have again been highlighted. things that realized me, me that was twisted to be who I am today, should not trap in inescapable circumstances, but move on.

these are some thoughts i wrote during the two days on plane.
possibly adjusting yourself to fit others' life into my way of going and move on without blaming your changes while holding ur rights tight enough in manners.
less emotion, more love: situation couldn't be worst, if, for everything that happened, nevermind the delay, stay calm and steady, find the closest solution before reaching your proper destination.
carve out space in which to think strategically, pushing myself slowly, to the direction that fit my way of going.
shortest meetings arent that bad, unbelievable i've made it. it's truely precious.

i'm not satisfy with myself. finally i realized it shouldnt be a lesson that shut me off.
however, presently, this place, shall left plenty of sweet memories in my heart before i leave. but finally, i found part of the answers, these are, the highlights of year 2008.
it might not totally a bad thing. this couldnt be harder than future thousand tasks. soon, i hope i will be ready to accept whatever hard tasks that come across and overcome the similar.

Labels: 2008, Self-confusion

there come a new year and go another one, which i doubt it make a different.

day by day, year by year. next routine, new people, follow by next farewells.

a place, where there is no single one or scene to remind me the every sweet thing or precious moment of past, part of my memories seems like been buried in hidden mists where i choose to deny its existance - living in the past make useless for the current.
however, once in a bluemoon pixels of rolls and columns flashes on my head, i fall into and dissappeared with it, sweet or pain, i was back to the scene. it just took a second of each day.
i bet everyone experienced this.
sometimes, it's important, to remember how far you've come, not just how far you have to go.

although imagination is powerful, in real life, if, i've been given a second chance to choose, or a second chance to meet someone, for whatever we've gone through, the result is still be the same -- meeting the past in you or me it is like the biggest desire i can make.

whether it's the shortest meeting, follow by another long parting. i dont feel bad, have i ever know how good it feels, i expect a better one. i ought to spare some spaces for the present out-of-control life experiences and useful lessons.

there come a new year and go another one, soon or later, may it be another place i live in, with similar strangers reminding what i own here, discouraging me with a blog like this.

there come a new year and go another one, i'm looking forward.

for those who have left with our memories, we'll resume it on our next meetings. memories, always with me.

come what may.

Labels: 2008, Life Quiz, Self-Improvement