again, i was sitting in the bus prepare to return to my dearest home..
without reason, i wasnt fall asleep this time, so much things keep recalling in my mind, this will be a year not to be forgotten.
felt like i've already passed 2 years in a year..
anyhow,thanks so much to my aunt and family who support me so much in doing this course.
i cant forget the minute that change my life.. in a day that i was about to enrol in a business course as i wasnt allow to study architecture course early in this year, even though i've tried my best to persuade my parents since last year. i understand why they react this way as they think it's harder for girls to find a job in this field..
finally it came to the day i had to face,i was down but still tell myself that's the best for me..you can do it well.. maybe..
then we reached subang jaya, on the second she was suppose to turn into TBS and enrol for me, as what she've promised to my dad,she asked me to decide.. then i owned an unforgotten year,in architecture,with all of you.. =) i'm glad and proud to say i dont feel regret.. it's a year about my own decision.. in everything. and i'll try my best to prove that my future is as bright as others. thanks aunt.=) for bringing me near to my dream which building my confident.
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drops of the rain, like leaves lost its balance, hitting to the glass. as it was about to be blowed and shaped by the wind, into uneven long lines through the window, the surroundings was changed.. it've block my view of the real world.. i hardly seen my direction..
in life, no constant sunny day. there'll be some curves instead of lines all the way.. it shape you well, into a better person, able to make greater decisions as you get along in your life.
at the start of this course,i losed myself, in direction, i tried to hold myself back,but it's so hard.worse, i had a bad start, get high fever on the whole orientation week. i thought it was a bad sign of choosing this course coz i never sick that serious since i was away from home.
i was temped, countless time,by people,events around. but i never make up my mind to change. i know this's it,i am doing the right thing,i am putting myself in my dream, it feels good.. =)
as i faced tons of pressure, which killing my confident; it was like wind,with great speed, which strengthen my tender to make things perfect,but i couldnt reach the target,still..
everything seen blur, rains keep going..
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[ SEREMBAN- XX KM ]
guess what's up? sun appeared,as to brighten the highway,the plantation, mountain, and penetrate through the drops. it's beautiful.
bus keeps going..
after raining, the world is cleaned, diluted. it's definately beautiful now.
turning back to the strangers who's weaving their dream, i told myself, i am in my dream,too.. and the dream is changing, not the direction, but view.
seems like god choose what i have to meet and i play the role to see and explore. =)
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[ TANGKAK- XXKM
MUAR - XX KM]
this few weeks, i learned a lot of things, about the commerce stuffs, about my future, it seems clearer, not as what i see year ago.. i get close to the move,if compare to past time, but still lost in most of the sentence it says in news.
i am almost there,facing the reality, which always blocked, hiring out of my viewable area.. being quite down these days, sigh.. reality is cruel,for most of the time.
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